i keep surviving the night - stillness the same as dreaming
Series compiled by atlantablack
Somnambulant by Traci Brimhall
A lucifer hummingbird drinks the light ripening
on the prudish oleander tattooed on my shoulder
A windup nightingale sings to its open cage
and Jesus' scabs redden like parables
A parade of my mother's nightgowns reciting the last
Please she ever wept as I roll them off the roof
Everything takes back its comfort except the waning
in my blood There's waking to be done post-solstice
Ghosts climb trees to watch me save myself
from another fire I started I keep surviving the night
Stillness the same as dreaming My nightgown sudden
with rhinestones The quiet in me hears a hymn
written on God's tongue North, the oldest glow
South the gospel dark black bells chiming Stay alive
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Summary:
Maedhros dies and opens his eyes to Losgar, to ships unburnt, and a heart like a mad thing. It depends on who you ask if this is a good thing or not.
Major Characters: Maedhros, Fingon, Fëanor
Major Relationships: Fingon/Maedhros, Fëanor & Maedhros
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(please) change the prophecy by atlantablack
Warnings: Check Notes for Warnings
“No,” he says once more, cutting his father off. The pressure in his chest hurts. He wanted to rest but instead there’s a great, spiked ball of fury dragging itself up his throat. “If you burn those boats I will walk out there and burn with them. I’ll swear it to Eru if you don’t believe me. Damn myself to the darkness twice.” He had intended to burn anyways, may as well go out the way he’d meant to, let his death mean something this time. Let it be for something that matters.
There must be something truly terrible on his face because his father visibly falters.
“You would not,” his father says but his voice wavers slightly.
there are limits to love by atlantablack
Warnings: Check Notes for Warnings
Following Maedhros averting the burning of the ships, Fingon worries, Maedhros finds a new reason to live, and Fëanor begins to wonder if he has made some mistakes. And underneath it all is enough love that they're all hoping, maybe just this once, it won't end in tragedy.
