Whatever You Say, Ace by Isilme_among_the_stars  

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Two


“Are you sneaking off again? You’re going to get us all into trouble you know.”

Maehdros had not seen Caranthir sitting in the entrance hall. Formenos had too many shadowy corners.

“It is not sneaking. I’m a grown adult and I can go where I choose.”

“Then why do you go after dark, while father sleeps?” Caranthir accused.

“Because he is too angry with uncle to try to understand and I do not want to hurt him. Neither do I wish for the rest of you to suffer the consequences.”

It was more than a mere difference in phrasing. Maedhros understood this, but he didn’t think Caranthir did. Caranthir rolled his eyes.

“Give Finno my regards then. How long will you be gone?”

“A few days. Cover for me in the morning?”

“Only because I love you so much. Do I get a kiss too?”

His brother’s voice dripped with sarcasm, but his eyes told a different story. All his brothers loved each other, just as they all loved father and worried about him. Maedhros did not rise to the bait.

“I’m not giving Findekáno kisses either. I know you don’t understand, Moryo, but I won’t give up his friendship just because our fathers are at each other’s throats.”

“Say what you want, I don’t see you sneaking off to visit Findaráto, or Turukáno or any of the others.”

“I could make a point of visiting our other cousins while I’m gone, you know, if you wanted me to? We all miss them. I have a letter for Írisse from Tyelko.” Maitimo pulled the corner of it from his pocket to show Caranthir.

“No, just tell Finno to pass on our regards.”


Maehdros stood behind Fingon and ran his fingers through his soft, thick hair. “Oh, I have missed you.”

Fingolfin pursed his lips and buried his face in his teacup, taking a deliberate, long sip.

“And I you. Won’t you stay?” he suggested between bites of bread spread thick with preserve.

“You could, Maitimo. You have family here. Your mother, as you know, abides with mine. We would make space for you.”

Nolofinwë, ever the diplomat, Maitimo thought, and I also can play that game. He began to part Fingon’s hair, twisting it so that all the finest strands were caught up in the braid and stayed out of his eyes, just how he liked.

“With respect, uncle, should my brothers or I have wished to stay, we would have chosen to do so from the beginning.”

“You are all grown. You do not have to follow your father’s path. I do not understand your decision.”

“We love our father, uncle. Not one of us would choose to be parted from him, and it would be wrong for anyone to try to steal us away,” Maedhros looked pointedly at Fingolfin. I see what you are trying to do, his expression said, it won’t work.

Fingolfin doubled down.

“Then why do I continually find you here? Sneaking away right under his nose.”

“It is because I also love my cousins, and you, and it is not sneaking.”

Turgon coughed.

“It is not sneaking, Turukáno. Grandfather knows where I go.”

“Does he know why? Does he know you are in love with one cousin in particular?”

Maedhros could not see Fingon’s glare, but he felt him do it, and knew exactly how it looked from Turgon’s end.

“You are wrong,” Maedros’s voice was quiet and dangerous, “and frankly I am appalled that you still cling to rumours that Makalaurë ignorantly began when we were little more than children. He was clever enough to realise his error many years ago.”

Turgon huffed but said no more.

Maedhros softened his voice, “it is like you and Findaráto. You are particularly close friends, and so it is with us.”

“Even I can see it runs deeper than that, Maitimo,” Fingolfin said quietly, “I know my sons. This is far more committed. Tread carefully.”

“He is not uncle Fëanáro, atya,” Fingon asserted, “he will not hurt me.”

“I am sure Maitimo is intelligent enough not to try such a thing,” Fingolfin remarked mildly, “he would not like the consequences.”

“I am hurt that you are concerned I might.”

The game was abruptly dropped. There was no pretense in Maedhros’s voice now, and from the look in his uncle’s eyes, Fingolfin understood this too. He sighed and pinched the bridge of his nose, then reached over and squeezed his nephew’s shoulder.

“What I would not give for our family to be woven whole at last. Come back as often as you like, Maitimo, and guard that pure heart of yours.”


“Have your father and Turukáno been very angry with me?” Maedhros asked Fingon later, when they were alone.

“Father? Not so very much. He worries, I think. He fears what uncle Fëanáro is becoming and worries that I may be drawn into that danger through you. Just as he does with Írisse and Tyelkormo.”

“He needn’t worry so much. My father’s anger burns hot, but once it has cooled, he will see reason. And it will cool as long as both manage not to provoke one another.”

“I hope you are right,” Fingon said, sounding unsure.

“But Turukáno?”

Fingon sighed and made a face.

“He is only angry because he wants me to have what he has. Elenwë has convinced him that I am missing out on marriage and fatherhood because of you. I am well and truly old enough now that my lack of marriage or even courting has become notable.”

“And are you missing out? Would you like such things?”

Maedhros watched intently as Fingon thought about this quietly for a moment.

“Perhaps, one day. Though I have not felt inclined towards either yet.”

“You could, you know. Begin to court someone, that is. If there was someone special who drew your attention. I would not mind.”

“You wouldn’t?”

“No, of course not. Why would I deny you that joy? It need not change anything between us.”

Maedhros tried to imagine Fingon with a family, with his own little daughter to love just as Turgon had. He felt his heart warm at the idea. It would be wonderful watching his cousin light up just as his own father had when his younger brothers were born. But he could not imagine his bold and adventurous Fingon as a father just yet. He was not so settled in life as Turgon, and still longed yet to stretch his wings.

“I do not want anything to change between us,” Fingon assured him, “I will keep it in mind. But I find my life full enough at present.”


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